How many times have you heard the expression “God will never let us go through anything that we can’t handle!”? It’s a nice Christian quote (not anywhere in Scripture by the way) and I see where people are coming from: ‘all things work for the good of those who love Him’ or  there is no temptation that is bigger than God or that He is loving and safe!

All of the above are true but how could God possibly show His power or show us how to have a supernatural faith if He doesn’t put us through things that are too much for us?

I can’t tell you a story of serious personal attack because of my faith. I can’t tell you that I have ever been in a place where I needed supernatural intervening to rescue me from a horrific reality. But the other day I had to stand in front of 15 extremely important people and do a presentation to show that they could trust us with a large sum of their money to do a project in city centre. There have been times when I have stood in front of people and the sweats start, the words in front of me start to make no sense and I look at all these staring faces looking back at me, the fight or flight systems start to kick in and my mind goes totally blank! This was one of those times……

But I prayed and I asked God to give me the strength to do this for His glory and, as soon as I did, the peace of God that surpasses all understanding guarded my heart and mind, I used the energy from the anxiousness to fuel my passion and I gave the presentation of my life!

Now did God let me go through something that I couldn’t handle? YES HE DID!!! But it was so that He could show His amazing power! Lord allow me to go through things that are way too big for me so that I and others can see Your power at work in me!

2 Corinthians 12 v 9 (NLT)
“Each time he [Jesus] said  “My Grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness. So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.”

“Never once did I ever walk alone, never once did you leave us on our own, you are faithful, God you are faithful”. The words from a new song by Matt Redman that the 10,000 young people in soul survivor sang at the top of their voices. But I struggled singing it because there have been times when I have screamed at God and asked Him to show me He was there because I felt so alone but He didn’t!

So should I convince myself that God is always there even at the times when I feel nothing and see nothing because that is what the preachers and the Bible says for me to do? Or do I allow doubt to creep in, allow my faith to be rocked and start to find arguments to show God isn’t there? Or do I ignore it and have a child like relationship with God when I never tackle the big questions?

If I ask the question ‘does God exist?’ and look at the answer through the eyes of the evil in the world and the times when I don’t feel Him or see Him then my answer would be ‘probably not!’ But if I add to that the fine tuning of the universe, the higher power arguments, the complexity of life itself then my answer would be ‘probably!’ But then if I add to that the times when He has answered my prayers, revealed Himself to me, the times I have prophesied truth, the miracles I have seen, my relationship with Him when I walk and talk with Him, then my answer would be ‘it’s a fact that He does!’

So that means that at the times when I do not see Him and do not feel Him, He is there, He is just silent! I once told God that I was sorry that He had to so often break me before I listen to Him. I have learned so much more during my times of suffering and loneliness than I do when on top of the mountain. Not that God doesn’t change and mature me in both situations!

So now I can truly sing “Never once did I ever walk alone, never once did you leave us on our own, you are faithful, God you are faithful”.

Psalms 139:7-12

Where shall I go from your Spirit? Or where shall I flee from your presence? If I ascend to heaven, you are there! If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there! If I take the wings of the morning and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, even there your hand shall lead me, and your right hand shall hold me. If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me, and the light about me be night, even the darkness is not dark to you; the night is bright as the day, for darkness is as light with you.

It’s funny. I watched the riots this week as wave after wave of evil unfolded! But I did not cry!

My heart sank when I saw lawlessness and mob rule. I was angry when I had to watch the police in a no win situation when if they attacked they may be seen as using undue force but took 111 injuries while waiting for the go ahead from the government! But I did not cry!

My anger rose when I saw a young man have his jaw broken and teeth smashed in and then being mugged in broad day light! I asked God to take my anger away and show me how to love! But I did not cry!

Oh but this week I did cry…. I cried so hard! But I cried when I saw a million people waiting with brushes and brooms ready to clear up the mess after the evil is gone! I cried when I saw a website set up to give money to the guy who had his jaw broken! I cried when I saw people making cups of tea for the police officers who stood on the front line for 30 hours without a break! I cried when I heard the father of a son who had been killed by looters asking for people to go home and stay calm…….. I pray that I could be that strong.

Love impacts so much more than retaliation, vengeance and anger

1 Corinthians 13 : ‘……Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.Love never ends….’

Father God help me to truly love…….. in the way that you love us!